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Happy New Year!

I keep meaning to post more, and life keeps getting in the way. I figured what better time to try and get back into the habit than the beginning of the new year?

2015 was rough. Among many things, I turned 30. My roommate lost her job, leading to increased financial pressure at home. My mood has been far from stable. I fractured my foot. My car was backed into. Record flooding in my area closed out the year.

Flooding in Valley Park, MO

As the flood waters receded, the sun came out for the first time in what felt like forever today. I’m thankful that I live at a high enough altitude that the flooding didn’t impact me personally. On December 30th, I went down to check out the waters of the Meramec River about 12 hours before they crested in nearby Valley Park, MO, where Interstate 44 at highway 141 was submerged. It was a surreal scene, to see an intersection I go through regularly completely shut down due to water.

I went back today and took more photos, which I will post later on. For now, you can see my album from the 30th here.

2015 wasn’t entirely bad, though. I started to fit in more at my new job. I expanded my doll family. A lot. I also expanded my cat family. I’ve become a slightly better photographer.

I still feel, though, like in the grand scheme of things, 2015 is a year that I’d not like to repeat. As I rang in the new year, with my best friend Lisa, my parents, and my Uncle Larry, I resolved that somehow, this year would be different. Somehow, I would make things better. Even if just a little at a time.

Then I promptly knocked over – and broke – a jar containing decorative sea shells.

Quite the unfortunate beginning, for sure.

After much needed rest, things weren’t exactly better. Moods around me were sour, which is a bad thing for an empathetic person like me, and after taking photos of the flood waters, I wound up with a hell of a migraine. I had to rest in a dark room for about two hours, even then waking up woozy, but at least I awoke with my darling calico, Rio, snuggled beside my legs. Usually, she sleeps with my room mate, so it was a welcome surprise.

Though 2016 might not have kicked off in the best way, I’m still hoping that things will slowly get better.

Happy new year, everyone!

PS – I’m going to be participating in the Dogwood Photography 52 Week Photo Challenge. Once I get going, I plan to post my photos here weekly. If you have a Flickr, feel free to follow me there. If not, check back here!

Long time no see

Since I made the doll blog, and that’s all I’ve really been posting lately, I’ve been ignoring this blog. However, my short attempt at using my livejournal again was cut short by my anger at their new friends feed layout that I can’t seem to undo, so I’ve come back here, and will likely continue to use this for my blogging purposes. I miss the security controls of livejournal, but it’s possible that WordPress has some that I just don’t know about? I’ll need to investigate further.

So, what’s been happening this year?

Dolls and more dolls. Of course, since that’s documented at my Doll blog, I don’t really need to update here. This year started out on a pretty good foot, despite being in a job that still has a lot of free time. My health hasn’t been so great, and I’ve put back on 20 or so lbs since 2011, but I’m maintaining at the moment, and somehow I’m getting by. My doctor retired at the end of June, so I had to start with a new one, and put her to use fairly quickly with migraine issues…

In life, my roommate was laid off at the end of May, and is still in search of a new job. We’re scraping by with my salary and her unemployment checks, but a number of things have been going wrong to make things harder on us. For now I’m holding my breath and hoping a new job comes through before the end of the year.

This put a damper on our wanting to go to Japan at the end of the year, though. At this point, I can’t say when we’ll be able to go again. Will I have to wait until I’m out of school? Hopefully not… I’m trying not to think about it too much, anyway.

I could go on about a number of silly little things that have gone on this year, but they’re likely boring. I’ll leave this here for now, and make another post full of cat photos I took while trying to shoot my first assignment for Digital Photography (including a few of our new kitten, Aya :D).


Another blow

This week has been trying financially, I’ve broken down a few times, and work stress is driving me up a wall. I’m at wits end, but I went to school to turn in paperwork for the summer and fall.

You know what?

My school won’t give out a loan for the summer semester.

Going part time, summer is important if I want to graduate any time soon. Yet they won’t give a loan. Ok, I thought, I’ll look at a private loan. But you know what? They aren’t on the list of approved schools for any of them.

I thought going to community college would be a good thing and get me going in the right direction, how the fuck does this help?

I’m so aggravated, depressed, and at a loss. I’m making practically the same as I was back in 2007, and yet everything has gotten so expensive, my job has gotten worse, and I owe everyone and their brother.

I’m at a loss.

It’s been a while!

I haven’t written here in two months! I haven’t really been busy, but I have been spending more time writing to my Ameba blog. It’s helping me to practice Japanese! I’ve also made many new friends. Some of them are people I never thought I would become friends with! It makes me happy!

Today is a national holiday, so I didn’t have to go to work! I was able to sleep late, and I went to eat lunch with my family. Tomorrow I return to my normal daily routine, but at least there are only four days of work instead of five!

I’m going to try to write to this blog more often. I still don’t know what to write about. I guess just my day to day life? Though, really it’s quite boring!!

We are still making plans to go to Japan sometime this winter, I think. I would love to go around Christmas, but work is always busy at that time, so perhaps in February! It would be nice to spend my birthday in the country I love. I will turn 25 next year, so I think it is a very important one!! I am worried about time, however. I have so many new people I would like to meet!! I wish that I could spend a month or two in Japan… but unfortunately, I don’t have enough money f(^^;;

So, that is my life lately. Look forward to more updates from now on!

iPhone 1680

Another day down

Today wasn’t that special, aside from the fact that we were treated to Imo’s Pizza at work. It helped boost my morale slightly, but it’s still hard to get up in the morning and motivate myself to get to work. I need a vacation BADLY.

I was awarded enough in loans to go to school in the fall, but I don’t know if I can actually do it. Am I ready to go back? Could I handle the class work AND work? Can I afford the excess stress?

It’s a lot to think about, isn’t it…

Well, I’m off to bed soon. Here’s to a better tomorrow…

Work and things

Lately it’s been hard for me to just relax and let go. There’s always something eating at me, be it work, personal, or home related. I’ve constantly been tired, and I often just want to go home and sleep. Working day after day at a dull job with no hopes of a raise or any vacation time this year is rough, and I feel like all my plans are for naught.

I’m trying to hang in there, though. There’s a lot of things I hope to do this year if I can manage them, and I need to start gaining a more positive outlook. I can get there if I set my mind to it! I proved it in 2007, and damn it, I’ll prove it in 2009, too.

For now, I just have to keep at what I’m doing. Little by little, day by day. I’ll do my best!! ☆(●ω●*ξ)